EmPTy InSIdE

Finally...

2011-04-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

Next week will be an exam which is the last exam for 4th year.

Strive very hard to make it become true.

Good luck to all my friend ex G05 and also G04 this year.

Since Last Year....

2011-01-14T21:03:00.000-08:00

Since last year, many thing had happened.

Had a very joyful family-outing-day after a looooong time,

Get a sad news at the end of the same day,

And somehow 2nd time felt sad about death, (am i that heartless before?)

For the 1st time after 13 years visiting my friends' grave and allow me to think about after life.

Death is something that we never really think about. Do we?

At one point i had think about it, but it not really absorbed into my blood system... :(

Being "insaf" at one point and then revert back to the old me?
Not really coz i think i had improved a bit.

Still clinging on my new aim.

Hope that one day i will a better person for the sake of myself.

Ya ALLAH gave me strength to be Your good servant.

Bless my life and what i will be doing in the future.

gave me strength to fight with the 'nafs' and the devil inside me....

What i miss right now?

2010-11-18T03:24:00.001-08:00

i miss the village environment

i miss my family

i miss my lil sisters

i miss my moms' cooking. Nak soup pleasee....

i miss my dad

i miss my cool car (skang wat hal x nk hidop)

i miss my time with my frens

i miss the time where can be a good girl. haih...

Keliru...

2010-11-15T15:10:00.001-08:00

Which one is important?

Why people did not really care about it?

I still confuse, not with myself, but with the situation.

Oh Allah give me guidance.

You Came To Me

2010-11-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

when listen and analyse the lyric, it makes me realize how far i had deviated from the path that i should follow. Oh Allah, please let me be the person who always worship YOU, let me be in the right pathway.

Sami Yusuf.....

2010-11-05T05:59:00.000-07:00

Another song that i like...

gonna seek for da album soon.

NO WORD IS WORTHY

(ENGLISH) Searched for the words To describe your beauty No matter how I tried No word seemed worthy Struggled to find The right words for You Words just fail to describe What's deep inside Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, wa Allahu Akbar (URDU) Zemmeen Aseman, Jinn-o-Insaa bhi (Earth and the Heavens, Jinn and Mankind) Teri taa'reefein, Kartey bayan sabhi (All praise Thee) Bekhud huey, Dono jahan hi (So both worlds become intoxicated) Ruh se nikley, Jab ye kalma…Subhan Allah… (When the soul recites this one word…Subhan Allah) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar (FARSI) Dar havaye To (In Your remembrance) Par migoshaayam (I spread my wings) Be omidi ke roozi (In hope for the day) Sooye To ayam (I come to You) Dar vasfe To (In describing You) Jomleha ra gashtam (I searched sentences) Kalameyi najostam (I found no word) Joz inke gooyam (Except to say) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar (MALY) Ku mencari kata puji (I searched for words to praise You with) Buat menemani zikir hati (Words to instill Your remembrance in my heart) Namun tiada kalam yang pasti (But no words are assuring enough) Yang sesuci kalam ini (As sacred as these) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar

Music & Words: Sami Yusuf
Urdo Words: Mehboob
Farsi Words: Ustad Firooz
Maly Words: Yasin Sulaiman
Produced by Sami Yusuf

2010-11-05T04:09:00.000-07:00

when i heard the music, i already fall in love with it.

way to go Sami Yusuf.

Wherever You Are

My best times Were when I felt close to you But everything fell apart The moment I strayed from you In each smile In every single sigh Every minute detail Traces of you are found there Wherever you are I'll find you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you be I'll be with you Cause you're the one my heart is to I need you To see your smile I would pass every trial Desperately I await For the day when I'm by your side Wherever you are I'll find you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you are I'll follow you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you be I'll be with you Cause you're the one my love is to My love is to Wherever you may be I'll follow till I see In my heart you will be Your love is all I need In every single smile Every single sigh Every minute detail Traces of you are there Wherever you may be I will search till we meet In my heart you will be Your love is all I need Wherever you may be

Words: Sami Yusuf
Music: Sami Yusuf
Produced by Sami Yusuf

Battle inside myself...

2010-10-29T23:58:00.000-07:00

At one point, i not sure with myself...

I really don't understand why i could not do what my brain instruct me,

instead i did what my heart tell me.

I should learn how to manage my time. Huh, that statement already uttered more than 100x i guess.

I really miss my baby....

Sunday...

2010-10-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday,

tomorrow another week of specialty,

can't wait for it.

Dr Subra: ENT is easy, no stress, just relax.

Dr Al-Junaid: Radiology u need to know basic.

huhuhuhu.. all da consultant said we had all the time to study, which i agree, but reluctantly do so.

haiya, how come eh? Need a good spirit to start everything over.

C freak come again.. huhuhu...

2010-10-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

I just wanna to get over the stress that build up on last week.

so browsing the net, stop when needed, ignoring people who make me stress (but still have 2 talk occasionally) and read novels.

But since yesterday, i keep looking at this guy and then suddenly all the crazy things i'd done before coming to my mind. erkkk....

LH, u make me remember all those --- that i love and crazy about!

Hehehe, need to knock some sense into my head.

i need to learn Chinese language lah...

hehehe, dream to get 1 as a company.

InsyaAllah, pray hard for it.

one of fav pic....

Moody mode....

2010-10-07T06:35:00.000-07:00

I need to finish assignment, instead no mood yet...

yeah, just forget about it for a minute then.

Im not sure if my knowledge let me realize that my mood change or just b'coz i am self conscious right now.

i start to felt angry towards some1 in my household, lucky not related to me, but still will appear in front of me whenever i'm home. Then she start doing things that i really make me irritated, plus with non stop talking plus annoying plus nagging plus cannot do what she supposed to do plus really distract my daily activity plus bla bla bla.....

Ok. Hope when i faced her tomorrow my annoyance towards her is not there. UUURRRGGGHHHH......

Now i start wondering, maybe all these things was part of the triggering factor of ur psy problem. The nearest example is me myself who start to have all sort of mood. Will try to have a good heart to confront people and no more cowardice in me!

need to stop to resume writing my assignment...

cayo' hamidah! U can do it!!!!!!

merry and rayer...

2010-09-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

yesterday raye n my bff wedding,

today my fren brothers' wedding n rayer again...

my stomach always full 4 da weekends. hehehe....

thanx my fren 4 da invitation and foods....

and now i had already travel all da state in the south and west.

the north part je belum... hehehe...

this month....

2010-09-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

this month a lot of things happened.
the chronology happened to me from last month until today:

1. in a group with some1 i barely know
2. i nearly develop depression n schizo when clerking PSY patient
3. my car's butt kiss some1 car's head (sepatutnye terbalik kan?)--> fulus terbang
4. travelling alone to Kelantan which is somehow enjoyable n tiring too...
5. had awaken at 3 am with shocking news and hardly sleep until morning
--> now i know, i may be a heartless person... huh? hati batukah aku????
6. this week start to be a type A person while had to travel early morning
7. rasenye dh terpengaruh ngan alia, every week call my mom good changes 4 me =)

8. my bff kawin tonite (friday) which i cannot attend... waaa.... mati kene marah nnti.

so, the conclusion is, so many things happened but i felt that the clock really jealous with me. time never been enough. haih....

When a good thing being spoiled !!

2010-06-12T02:39:00.001-07:00

Alhamdulillah,
the 3rd year had officially ended yesterday.
now, will have a gooood looooong holiday ever.
really want to have a good holiday, but somehow being spoiled at early stage.
have a conflict whether to leave my beloved 4 wheel buddy and let my aunt bring that home next 2 week or just take it with me and let my aunt take from there?
what i could say my mood had being spoiled!!!!!
really hate it la....
want to call my mom, but she could not be reach at the moment.
AAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! really hate it.
my plan was being disturbed and i should have B planned which i never had.
i will stranded and be bored if i did not have my buddy!
what they know about me? just think about themselves!
okay, i will think how to solve this la.
just want to ease my mind right now.
will come back later.

Pemangking yang menyegarkan....

2010-03-31T15:29:00.000-07:00

"hamidah bangun, u kene study, kite nak exam..." ayat era yang menyegarkan mate i yang dah tertutup after isya'... hehehe.. thanks er-er...
next week exam.

One of beautiful music i get..

2010-03-27T20:26:00.000-07:00

Maher Zain - Hold my hand
From album: Thank You Allah

I hear the flowers gonna crying loud
The breeze is sounding sad
Oh no!
Tell me when the breeze would calm
So cold and and empty side
Lost the way long time ago
Did we really turn that blind
We dont see that we keep hurting each other
No, all we do we just fight

Now we share the same bright sun
The same round moon
Why dont we share the same love?
Tell me why not?
Life is shorter than most they thought

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

Children seem like theyve lost their smile
On their new bloody playgrounds
Oh no!
How could we ignore?
Heart breaking crying sounds
And we still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stop feeling all the pain
Because like its a daily basic affair

Now we share the same bright sun
The same round moon
Why dont we share the same love?
Tell me why not?
Life is shorter than most they thought

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

No matter how far Ill might be
Im always gonna be your neighbour
Its only one small planet were to be
So Im always gonna be your neighbour
We cannot hide, we cant deny
That we always gonna be neighbours
Your neighbour
My neighbour
Were neighbours

So hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind..

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

Promise

2010-03-17T18:29:00.000-07:00

Suddenly i had develop korean freak again.
our daily life is beutiful with colours and also some abstract that we should overcome
that what make our life interesting...
what we promise will not definitely become true,
but not use an excuse to not fight for it and try to make what you had promised become relity.

hahaha, im doom. really into this Youre Beautiful.

What should I Do?

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I can’t catch you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I can’t find you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do? I love you only
I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on
What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

Hangeoleum mankeum geudael bonaemyeon nunmulina
Hangeoleum mankeum geudaega gamyeon deo nunmuli heulleo wa
Soneul bbeodeodo sonnaemileodo daheulsu eopneun goseuro
Geudae ganeunde japji motago nan ulgoman itjyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo geudaega ddeonaganeyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo naldugo ddeonaganeyo
Saranghaeyo saranghaeyo mongnoa bulleobojiman
Geudaen deutji motaeyo gaseumeuroman woechigo isseuni
Haruonjongil jiwobojiman ddo ddeoolla
Haruonjongil ibyeolhajiman ddo dasi ddeoolla
Soneul bbeodado sonnaemileodo aneulsu eopneun goseuro
Geudaen gatjiman chatji motago nan ulgoman itjyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo jaggu geudaeman boyeoyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo nan geudael saranghaneunde
Mianhaeyo mianhaeyo naemali deullisinayo
Dasi dolawajwoyo geudae animyeon nan andoeniggayo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo nan ojik geudaebbuninde
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo geudaega ddeonaganeyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo naldugo ddeonaganeyo
Saranghaeyo saranghaeyo mongnoa bulleobojiman
Geudaen deutji motaeyo gaseumeuroman woechigo isseuni

just enjoy da video... "Promise"

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welcome surgery

2009-10-31T03:58:00.000-07:00

even though its been 3 weeks in surgery posting,
i still felt at lost some times.
need to be quick to grab everything around me!!!

to an extend, i truly wasted my time at alamanda and guess what i got????
my pocket become "kempis" and going to "empty"

this ring had friend finally

this what i got...

reminder for all of us, have you parents in this world is the best thing never can be replaced....

2009-09-06T17:08:00.000-07:00

Dear son...
The day that you see me old and I am already not,
have patience and try to understand me …

If I get dirty when eating…
if I can not dress…
have patience.
Remember the hours I spent teaching it to you.

If, when I speak to you,
I repeat the same things thousand and one times…
do not interrupt me…
listen to me.
When you were small,
I had to read to you thousand and one times the same story until you gets to sleep…

When I do not want to have a shower,
neither shame me nor scold me…
Remember when I had to chase you with thousand excuses I invented,
in order that you wanted to bath…

When you see my ignorance on new technologies…
give me the necessary time and not look at me with your mocking smile…
I taught you how to do so many things…
to eat well,
to dress well…
to confront life…

When at some moment I lose the memory or the thread of our conversation…
let me have the necessary time to remember…
and if I cannot do it,
do not become nervous…
as the most important thing is not my conversation but surely to be with you and to have you listening to me…

If ever I do not want to eat,
do not force me.
I know well when I need to and when not.
When my tired legs do not allow me walk...…
give me your hand…
the same way I did when you gave your first steps.

And when someday I say to you that I do not want to live any more…
that I want to die…
do not get angry…
some day you will understand…

Try to understand that my age is not lived but survived.
Some day you will discover that,
despite my mistakes,
I always wanted the best thing for you and that I tried to prepare the way for you...

You must not feel sad, angry or impotent for seeing me near you.
You must be next to me,
try to understand me and to help me as I did it when you started living.

Help me to walk…
help me to end my way with love and patience.
I will pay you by a smile and by the immense love I have had always for you.

I love you son…
Your father

Welcome back...

2009-09-03T01:32:00.001-07:00

dah 4 minggu dgn public health.
hidop penuh cabaran, time critical tu lah banyak mende nak jadi.
1. time nk hntr report, printer buat hal
2. time nk pg cari restoran beli mkanan, time tu la lak sesat.
3. today, time critical, x pernh dibuat blik kol 5.50 a.m. from RC, smpai rumah smbung wat keje sambil tertido2. kol 7 a.m bhav call die trkunci so kne pi ambik die kt RC, dahle keje x siap lg, drive like a mad person, tp alhamdulillah, smpai awal juga kt RC in 7.55 a.m.

p/s - apa pendapat anda sambil gelak bawa kete like a mad person? mesti cam org mabuk kan? itulah conditionku....

PUBLIC HEALTH

2009-08-15T22:45:00.000-07:00

ok, 1st day kene dgr taklimat,
then ambik info 1 patient kt klinik kesihatan sg pelek
bile aku call mck tu...

aku: hello, boleh saya ckp dgn pn hong kim choo?
pn hkc: alooo...
aku: hello, boleh cakap dgn pn hong kim choo?
pn hkc: aloo... ya, saya...
aku: saya bla...bla...bla...
pn hkc: ha??? saya kurang dgr la, kamu ckp sama anak sya laa...
aku: ok
anak die: haloo...
aku: haloo, saya bla...bla...bla...
(ntah bahase mende die ckp, bising lak tu)
aku: helloooo......
anak die: aloo...
(bising lagi...)
aku: hallo
anak die:ah, hallo. apa mau?
aku: saya bla...bla... bal...(intro bukan main panjang lai)
boleh x saya mahu dtg jumpa emak encik?
anak die: nanti saya tanya sama emak saya ha..
ku: ok
(pastu anak die tanye la mak die dlm bahase cine yg aku x paham)
anak ie: haloo... soli aa, mak saya tak mau
aku: sya mau jumpa aje, nk lawat die
anak die: soli aaa, mak say tarak mau
aku: ok

dengan hati yg berat aku bgta dr sabariah, tp disuruh juga pegi ke sana...
entah apalah nasibku nanti...

tersesat lagi....

2009-08-15T22:25:00.001-07:00

1. hari b4 start balik sesi pembelajaran, dengan beraninye aku pi PKNS bangi sensoranng, petang lak tu. insiden yg berlaku:
i. silap kuar ikut bangi perdana instead of petronas (aku confuse dgn jln tetibe)
ii. blik kol 8 dari PKNS kuar ikut jln sesuka hati coz tetiba je x ingat jln mane dtg tadi, siap sampai kat permata doh...
iii. kuar permata aku silap lg, ambik jln nk pi cyber (hahaha maknanye aku boleh balik cyber, tp x leh balik bangi)
iv. naseb baek jumpe jln smpai dkt soshor . thanks era menjadi penyelamatku. (memg jd penunjuk arah yg berjaya, conversation smbil drive, mantap g2)

2. nak pi cyber dr bangi, ingtkan nk ikut era, tp mck aku lak pinjam kete...
nk kne smpai evenQ b4 9, mck aku lak x blik2 lg dh kol 8.30. akhirnye aku tepon gak, n die patah balik coz x smpai lai putra, baru je dlm area bangi, apekah?????
i. dengan penuh debaran bawa la kete tu, tetiba la silap arah pi masuk tol. ok, x pe kot pi la tol
ii. sampai simpang jb, klia aku masuk lagi, tetiba... erk, silap jln...
toot....toot...
aku: era, i masuk tol, pastu silap ambik jln pi klia
era: hah???? nape masuk tol? patah la balik
aku: x de tempat patah balik, ade pi putra mahkota
era: carila exit, patah balik, dah nk kol 9 ni, habistu cmne?
aku: xde la, ade pi mahkota je
dah terlepas dah exit tu..
era: ambikla exit tu..
aku: dah lepasla, tp ade signboard pi nilai klia
era: i xtau la, x biase jln tu
aku: habisla.... ok la, i jln je dulu tgk ape jd.
era: ok, cepat sikit tau, dh nk start ni.
aku: ok, nnti tlong hantar poster ye
era; ok, ape2 bgtau i
aku: ok

dahla asyik tepon era je sepnjg jln...
akhirnye jumpa la exit pi putrajaya cyberjaya
sampai juga akhirnya aku di evenQ, tp dah kol 9.12 a.m

mende yg aku buat hritu tp x pernah buat sblm ni:
1. drive smpai 150 km/hr (mantap gile, kalau mak aku tau, sah terkejut die)
2. drive 120 km/hr tp pegang hp sebelah, stereng sebelah (memang cari nahas)
3. drive ikut naluri je

itulah kisah hidop aku yg agak advantures....

Entering the 3rd year....

2009-08-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

my 1st posting is PUBLIC HEALTH,
memg tatau nk wat ape, muke pon blurr je memanjang.

my 1st day come to Kl driving my mother's car, actually separuh jln je,
from lipis to kl, but a loootttssss of event happened.

1. bila sampai je kl, ayahanda tersayang mahu singgah rumah kawan die kat selayang,
direction yang diberi oleh kwn die "ikut je signboard pegi rawang, sampai dkt shell bagitau la ye.."
then ikut ajela signboard tu dgn aggak gerun bwa kete, 1st time drive kt kl la katakan.
ok ikut signboard aku ckp sensorang, tetiba smpai roundabout simpang yg ade kl, selayang, kepong, adoi, mane satu nie?????
masuk ajela kepong kate aku, ayahku di sebelah sokong aja....
smpai junction bwh fly-over, kanan pi FRIM, terus pi kepong,
selepas bertubi2 pertanyaan, akhirnya silap juga masuk jln pi kepong...
jumpa taman sri kepong, masuk situ dulu tok tanye balik direction,
P.N: ok, jln je terus, pastu masuk selayang.
aku: xde tulis pun selayang???? (confuse)

ok, aku drive je lagi ikut kepong.
P.N: cari shell belah kiri, pastu tunggu kat situ
Ayhnda: cari shell belah kiri...
aku: x de stesen shell pon, petronas ade la, shell belah kanan.
P.N: eh, belah kiri la
aku (sambil drive): sah, x de stesen shell, kiri pi kepong, kanan pi mane ntah.
eh, nak pegi mane ni????? (panik jap)
Ayhnda: dah2... berenti je kat sini,
aku: msuk kt kedai ni ek?
Ayhnda: ha ah, masuk je...

Ayahnda tepon balik la kawan die tu (P.N)
P.N: tu tempan jin betandang.
(hahahaha.... aku masuk hutan bandar. dalm hatiku)
Ayhnda: kat sini ade maybank....
P.N: ok, tunggu situ, nnti pi ambik
(naseb baek die tau kt mane aku masuk, kire terrer gak arr)

then, akhirnya selamat aku sampai rumah die...
jumpa Che Da yg sakit (baru balik hosp selayang wat chemo)
jumpa Cik Ita yg comel. hahahaha.... dah selesai santap, solat, ayhnda ngan P.N lesap, tinggal aku kt rumah ngan Che Da and Cik Ita. ok, aku borak la dgn dieorg, jd la tmpt luah perasaan...
(haih, aku ni memg sesuai ke jd councellor????)

2. udah selesai urusan ayhnda ngan P.N kami pon bertolak ke bangi,
P.N: tau x jalan?
aku: tatau...
P.N: ikut je pi kl, pastu jumpa la tu....
ni sape drive?
Ayhnda: die (aku) la, mlm2 ni kurang nampak...
aku dlm hati "aku lai ker????"

then aku pon drive la, kononnye nk ikut sg besi, last2 x dak pulak pi sg besi,
ni nk pi mane lak nie???? memg hampeh gile,
ok, dipendekkan cerita ade la 2-3 x aku tersalah ambik simpang, so U-turn lah dgn jayanya...
naik flyover yg keberapa entah, kecut perut aku sebab die nyer jln cam bulatan, siap drift lg... tetiba...
Ayhnda: eh, ade kete kt belakang tu,
aku: hah??? x nmpak pon???? (dlm hati"habesla...")
Ayhnda: dah, jln je...
suddenly, kete yg kt belakang yg hampir dihimpit ke tepi dek aku pi tepi tunjuk penumbuk,
siot, ecut perut meh, siap wat gaya ala2 samseng lg tuh,
tgn aku dh berpeluh2 dah nie, tekak dh kering, naseb baik coordianation tgn betui lagi.

aku: nk berenti ke nie?
Ayhnda: x payah, jln je terus, bio je org camtu

ok, aku jln je terus, kete tu siap pi dok depan bwa slow2,
smpai simpang pi klia n kl, die pi kl, aku belok terus pi klia,
adus.... alhamdulillah.
akhirnya smpai juaga aku kt bangi mlm tu walaupon ingt2 lupe jln kt ctu...

malamnye ak siap mimpi lg tuh insiden tu, esoknye fobia bwa kete jap.
hahaha... skang dh ok
tp semenjak itu, 2-3 hri otakku x leh nk trime instruction n ingt mende dgn betul,
asyik sesat je...

copy from Backpack Ali da traveller...

2009-07-28T18:45:00.000-07:00

Greetings from Singapore!
Just to share...
While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up stone and scratched lines on the side of the car.
In anger the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a wrench.
At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'

The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.
Devastated by his own actions...
Sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.

The next day that man committed suicide...
Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life...

Things are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's world is that,
People are used and things are loved...
During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used, but People are to be loved...
Be yourself...
This is the only day we HAVE

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny...

Life is Beautiful...

p/s yes, life is beautiful if we see it as beautiful, but it also ugly if we always see disaster..

It getting my nerve

2009-06-20T20:23:00.000-07:00

Since i don't know what to do, i had saw few korean movie and trailler.
Boleh kate have little interest on DBSK,
somehow when saw their MTV i really pissed off.
Ok, change channel, tengok boys over flowers sambungan dari hari khamis,
lagi pissed off!!!

Know why?
B'coz air muke sensorang x leh blah. Fake giler.
Argggghhhhh!!! My mood was ruined!!!!
I hate fake smile, fake tears and poker face.

I bet that poker face from Prof Ikram is better more than 100 times.
OMG, i really hate them now. Memang x de bakat berlakon.
But, their song still good though. X tau la cammane cite2 yg dieorg berlakon b4 ni cam best.
Haih, i am being lied..... Hurm, x leh lawan the veteran actor.

What i should do to vent my anger???
It really ruin everything.
Kalau x tau act, x yah la berlakon.
Baik eden tengok cit melayu yang lembap dari tgk muke fake korang.

Ok, done, dari kutuk orang baik kite puji orang lain.
Hehehe... Anyway, I think I like da old movie da most.
They have feeling, not a poker face.
If i am da director, baik ambik orang cam Queen B, er-er or Fiona jadi actress.
Harharhar....
Ok, no mood for movie now, baik layang manga.

Vivian u r still my no 1. thats why i like my nick "vca"
Bae yong jun, being ages but more handsome. hahaha, weird taste.

2009-06-19T16:57:00.000-07:00

DETIK DETIK YANG MENCEMASKAN....

dalam menunggu "the day" come, i had rally struggle to discipline myself to study, but guess what, i still enjoying comics!!!

bila ingatkan kembali, i'm really hate it, but couldn't help it.
what a hopeless person... (depressed mode)
but, there are people who always pull me back to reality...

who are they????
da-lima-sekawan...

hehehe.... hasilnya....

berusaha memahamkan apekah ini sambil absorbed dlm tido...

wit nano before starting the discussion

turtle bag with a lot of things inside, cube bandingkan wich one macam turtle???

hasil penat lelah akhirnya berbaloi, tapi bak kate er-er, daku tidak dapat bergembira seperti orang lain.... masih terbuku dalam hati that i can do better than this....
however, do it better tomorrow!!!!

p/s buat kengkawan yang x de gambor ampun dipinta, patik x de gambarnya....

Dedication to people around me for this 2 years...

2009-06-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

Hopping that the sunshine last forever....
To all my fren who were with me for the whole time for these 2 years, i am really grateful to met you guys...
we are all together trough the storm, tornado, and even drought passing trough us,
tears and sweat hold us together...

Buat Nano, Er-Er, Ashu, Argh!!!-lia and Queen B, 1 year together with u guys brings a lot of sweet and bitter memories. Even kite x bersame for the 2nd yr, but all of u have leave mark on my heart. not being in a group doesn't meant we can't be together, right?

To tell da truth, sometimes it hurt to accept the truth. maybe unintentionally i had hurt you, but i hope being forgiven... and as for me, everything was okay, nothing bad will stain my heart (insyaAllah)

FOR ALL OF YOU, LETS MEET AGAIN NEXT YEAR!!!

Shocking and relief news...

2009-06-03T02:15:00.000-07:00

today prof postkan the list of student eligible for pro exam,
i felt rilief my name is there, but sad too as not all of us were listed.

yeah, 9 days to go.
mom, dad n everyone, give me support!

wanna cry, but wanna laugh too...

kenape hatiku kosong??

2009-05-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

camne leh terjebak ngan mendalah nie aku pon tatau,
tgn gatai nk click n type agaknyer...
n seronok bace blog org lein...

just wanna share, what i feel these days,
when i saw da folio, my heart feel empty....
wanna call my mom nun di sana, tapi x tercall la pulak,
tabahkan hati main game, tgk jam dah kol 12 pm..
alamak, task x wat lagi, x p, layan manga jap...

mata asyik menjeling ke arah timing di satu sudut di tepi com,
erk... dah petangkah?

ok, start ur move!!!
denagn penuh semangat membuat nota and...
next time i realize, i lay on da pillow, laptop standby mode, room is dark...
huh, pukul berapekah????
cepat2 tgk blik notes yg separuh siap n ...
tido balik coz jam menunjukkn mukanya yang bernombor 10...

all da Q keep asking on my head...
why nothing going into my head?
why i cannot concentrate?
why my adrenalin rush x de? (huh? apekehal?)
why tahap kerajinan x bertambah?
why is so many Q in my head?

da answer is one...
b'coz my heart far away from GOD.
masyaAllah, bila la nak taubat?
alwayz try my best to be a better person.
insya Allah, akan cuba bermujahadah...
tinggalkan sekejap irama yg melayan halwa pendengaran,
contengan yang menari di hadapan mata,
khayalan yang bermain dlm fikiran,

Ya ALLAH, bantulah hamba-Mu mencari ketenanagn dalam keributan...