Battle inside myself...

At one point, i not sure with myself...

I really don't understand why i could not do what my brain instruct me,

instead i did what my heart tell me.

I should learn how to manage my time. Huh, that statement already uttered more than 100x i guess.

I really miss my baby....

Sunday...

Today is Sunday,

tomorrow another week of specialty,

can't wait for it.

Dr Subra: ENT is easy, no stress, just relax.

Dr Al-Junaid: Radiology u need to know basic.

huhuhuhu.. all da consultant said we had all the time to study, which i agree, but reluctantly do so.

haiya, how come eh? Need a good spirit to start everything over.

C freak come again.. huhuhu...

I just wanna to get over the stress that build up on last week.

so browsing the net, stop when needed, ignoring people who make me stress (but still have 2 talk occasionally) and read novels.

But since yesterday, i keep looking at this guy and then suddenly all the crazy things i'd done before coming to my mind. erkkk....

LH, u make me remember all those --- that i love and crazy about!

Hehehe, need to knock some sense into my head.

i need to learn Chinese language lah...

hehehe, dream to get 1 as a company.

InsyaAllah, pray hard for it.

one of fav pic....

Moody mode....

I need to finish assignment, instead no mood yet...

yeah, just forget about it for a minute then.

Im not sure if my knowledge let me realize that my mood change or just b'coz i am self conscious right now.

i start to felt angry towards some1 in my household, lucky not related to me, but still will appear in front of me whenever i'm home. Then she start doing things that i really make me irritated, plus with non stop talking plus annoying plus nagging plus cannot do what she supposed to do plus really distract my daily activity plus bla bla bla.....

Ok. Hope when i faced her tomorrow my annoyance towards her is not there. UUURRRGGGHHHH......

Now i start wondering, maybe all these things was part of the triggering factor of ur psy problem. The nearest example is me myself who start to have all sort of mood. Will try to have a good heart to confront people and no more cowardice in me!

need to stop to resume writing my assignment...

cayo' hamidah! U can do it!!!!!!

merry and rayer...

yesterday raye n my bff wedding,

today my fren brothers' wedding n rayer again...

my stomach always full 4 da weekends. hehehe....

thanx my fren 4 da invitation and foods....

and now i had already travel all da state in the south and west.

the north part je belum... hehehe...

this month....

this month a lot of things happened.
the chronology happened to me from last month until today:

1. in a group with some1 i barely know
2. i nearly develop depression n schizo when clerking PSY patient
3. my car's butt kiss some1 car's head (sepatutnye terbalik kan?)--> fulus terbang
4. travelling alone to Kelantan which is somehow enjoyable n tiring too...
5. had awaken at 3 am with shocking news and hardly sleep until morning
--> now i know, i may be a heartless person... huh? hati batukah aku????
6. this week start to be a type A person while had to travel early morning
7. rasenye dh terpengaruh ngan alia, every week call my mom good changes 4 me =)

8. my bff kawin tonite (friday) which i cannot attend... waaa.... mati kene marah nnti.

so, the conclusion is, so many things happened but i felt that the clock really jealous with me. time never been enough. haih....

When a good thing being spoiled !!

Alhamdulillah,
the 3rd year had officially ended yesterday.
now, will have a gooood looooong holiday ever.
really want to have a good holiday, but somehow being spoiled at early stage.
have a conflict whether to leave my beloved 4 wheel buddy and let my aunt bring that home next 2 week or just take it with me and let my aunt take from there?
what i could say my mood had being spoiled!!!!!
really hate it la....
want to call my mom, but she could not be reach at the moment.
AAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! really hate it.
my plan was being disturbed and i should have B planned which i never had.
i will stranded and be bored if i did not have my buddy!
what they know about me? just think about themselves!
okay, i will think how to solve this la.
just want to ease my mind right now.
will come back later.