What i miss right now?

i miss the village environment

i miss my family

i miss my lil sisters

i miss my moms' cooking. Nak soup pleasee....

i miss my dad

i miss my cool car (skang wat hal x nk hidop)

i miss my time with my frens

i miss the time where can be a good girl. haih...

Keliru...

Which one is important?

Why people did not really care about it?

I still confuse, not with myself, but with the situation.

Oh Allah give me guidance.

You Came To Me

when listen and analyse the lyric, it makes me realize how far i had deviated from the path that i should follow. Oh Allah, please let me be the person who always worship YOU, let me be in the right pathway.

Sami Yusuf.....

Another song that i like...

gonna seek for da album soon.

NO WORD IS WORTHY
(ENGLISH) Searched for the words To describe your beauty No matter how I tried No word seemed worthy Struggled to find The right words for You Words just fail to describe What's deep inside Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, wa Allahu Akbar (URDU) Zemmeen Aseman, Jinn-o-Insaa bhi (Earth and the Heavens, Jinn and Mankind) Teri taa'reefein, Kartey bayan sabhi (All praise Thee) Bekhud huey, Dono jahan hi (So both worlds become intoxicated) Ruh se nikley, Jab ye kalma…Subhan Allah… (When the soul recites this one word…Subhan Allah) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar (FARSI) Dar havaye To (In Your remembrance) Par migoshaayam (I spread my wings) Be omidi ke roozi (In hope for the day) Sooye To ayam (I come to You) Dar vasfe To (In describing You) Jomleha ra gashtam (I searched sentences) Kalameyi najostam (I found no word) Joz inke gooyam (Except to say) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar (MALY) Ku mencari kata puji (I searched for words to praise You with) Buat menemani zikir hati (Words to instill Your remembrance in my heart) Namun tiada kalam yang pasti (But no words are assuring enough) Yang sesuci kalam ini (As sacred as these) Subhan Allah, Wa alhamdulillah, la illaha il Allah, Wa Allahu Akbar
Music & Words: Sami Yusuf
Urdo Words: Mehboob
Farsi Words: Ustad Firooz
Maly Words: Yasin Sulaiman
Produced by Sami Yusuf

when i heard the music, i already fall in love with it.

way to go Sami Yusuf.

Wherever You Are
My best times Were when I felt close to you But everything fell apart The moment I strayed from you In each smile In every single sigh Every minute detail Traces of you are found there Wherever you are I'll find you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you be I'll be with you Cause you're the one my heart is to I need you To see your smile I would pass every trial Desperately I await For the day when I'm by your side Wherever you are I'll find you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you are I'll follow you Cause you're the one I turn to Wherever you be I'll be with you Cause you're the one my love is to My love is to Wherever you may be I'll follow till I see In my heart you will be Your love is all I need In every single smile Every single sigh Every minute detail Traces of you are there Wherever you may be I will search till we meet In my heart you will be Your love is all I need Wherever you may be
Words: Sami Yusuf
Music: Sami Yusuf
Produced by Sami Yusuf

Battle inside myself...

At one point, i not sure with myself...

I really don't understand why i could not do what my brain instruct me,

instead i did what my heart tell me.

I should learn how to manage my time. Huh, that statement already uttered more than 100x i guess.

I really miss my baby....

Sunday...

Today is Sunday,

tomorrow another week of specialty,

can't wait for it.

Dr Subra: ENT is easy, no stress, just relax.

Dr Al-Junaid: Radiology u need to know basic.

huhuhuhu.. all da consultant said we had all the time to study, which i agree, but reluctantly do so.

haiya, how come eh? Need a good spirit to start everything over.

C freak come again.. huhuhu...

I just wanna to get over the stress that build up on last week.

so browsing the net, stop when needed, ignoring people who make me stress (but still have 2 talk occasionally) and read novels.

But since yesterday, i keep looking at this guy and then suddenly all the crazy things i'd done before coming to my mind. erkkk....

LH, u make me remember all those --- that i love and crazy about!

Hehehe, need to knock some sense into my head.

i need to learn Chinese language lah...

hehehe, dream to get 1 as a company.

InsyaAllah, pray hard for it.

one of fav pic....

Moody mode....

I need to finish assignment, instead no mood yet...

yeah, just forget about it for a minute then.

Im not sure if my knowledge let me realize that my mood change or just b'coz i am self conscious right now.

i start to felt angry towards some1 in my household, lucky not related to me, but still will appear in front of me whenever i'm home. Then she start doing things that i really make me irritated, plus with non stop talking plus annoying plus nagging plus cannot do what she supposed to do plus really distract my daily activity plus bla bla bla.....

Ok. Hope when i faced her tomorrow my annoyance towards her is not there. UUURRRGGGHHHH......

Now i start wondering, maybe all these things was part of the triggering factor of ur psy problem. The nearest example is me myself who start to have all sort of mood. Will try to have a good heart to confront people and no more cowardice in me!

need to stop to resume writing my assignment...

cayo' hamidah! U can do it!!!!!!

merry and rayer...

yesterday raye n my bff wedding,

today my fren brothers' wedding n rayer again...

my stomach always full 4 da weekends. hehehe....

thanx my fren 4 da invitation and foods....

and now i had already travel all da state in the south and west.

the north part je belum... hehehe...

this month....

this month a lot of things happened.
the chronology happened to me from last month until today:

1. in a group with some1 i barely know
2. i nearly develop depression n schizo when clerking PSY patient
3. my car's butt kiss some1 car's head (sepatutnye terbalik kan?)--> fulus terbang
4. travelling alone to Kelantan which is somehow enjoyable n tiring too...
5. had awaken at 3 am with shocking news and hardly sleep until morning
--> now i know, i may be a heartless person... huh? hati batukah aku????
6. this week start to be a type A person while had to travel early morning
7. rasenye dh terpengaruh ngan alia, every week call my mom good changes 4 me =)

8. my bff kawin tonite (friday) which i cannot attend... waaa.... mati kene marah nnti.

so, the conclusion is, so many things happened but i felt that the clock really jealous with me. time never been enough. haih....

When a good thing being spoiled !!

Alhamdulillah,
the 3rd year had officially ended yesterday.
now, will have a gooood looooong holiday ever.
really want to have a good holiday, but somehow being spoiled at early stage.
have a conflict whether to leave my beloved 4 wheel buddy and let my aunt bring that home next 2 week or just take it with me and let my aunt take from there?
what i could say my mood had being spoiled!!!!!
really hate it la....
want to call my mom, but she could not be reach at the moment.
AAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! really hate it.
my plan was being disturbed and i should have B planned which i never had.
i will stranded and be bored if i did not have my buddy!
what they know about me? just think about themselves!
okay, i will think how to solve this la.
just want to ease my mind right now.
will come back later.

Pemangking yang menyegarkan....

"hamidah bangun, u kene study, kite nak exam..." ayat era yang menyegarkan mate i yang dah tertutup after isya'... hehehe.. thanks er-er...
next week exam.

One of beautiful music i get..

Maher Zain - Hold my hand
From album: Thank You Allah

I hear the flowers gonna crying loud
The breeze is sounding sad
Oh no!
Tell me when the breeze would calm
So cold and and empty side
Lost the way long time ago
Did we really turn that blind
We dont see that we keep hurting each other
No, all we do we just fight

Now we share the same bright sun
The same round moon
Why dont we share the same love?
Tell me why not?
Life is shorter than most they thought

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

Children seem like theyve lost their smile
On their new bloody playgrounds
Oh no!
How could we ignore?
Heart breaking crying sounds
And we still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stop feeling all the pain
Because like its a daily basic affair

Now we share the same bright sun
The same round moon
Why dont we share the same love?
Tell me why not?
Life is shorter than most they thought

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

No matter how far Ill might be
Im always gonna be your neighbour
Its only one small planet were to be
So Im always gonna be your neighbour
We cannot hide, we cant deny
That we always gonna be neighbours
Your neighbour
My neighbour
Were neighbours

So hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind..

Hold my hand,
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand,
Turn around and see what you left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit in me and you
Form another chance
And lets pray for the beautiful world
The beautiful world I share with you

Promise

Suddenly i had develop korean freak again.
our daily life is beutiful with colours and also some abstract that we should overcome
that what make our life interesting...
what we promise will not definitely become true,
but not use an excuse to not fight for it and try to make what you had promised become relity.

hahaha, im doom. really into this Youre Beautiful.

What should I Do?

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I can’t catch you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I can’t find you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do? I love you only
I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on
What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

Hangeoleum mankeum geudael bonaemyeon nunmulina
Hangeoleum mankeum geudaega gamyeon deo nunmuli heulleo wa
Soneul bbeodeodo sonnaemileodo daheulsu eopneun goseuro
Geudae ganeunde japji motago nan ulgoman itjyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo geudaega ddeonaganeyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo naldugo ddeonaganeyo
Saranghaeyo saranghaeyo mongnoa bulleobojiman
Geudaen deutji motaeyo gaseumeuroman woechigo isseuni
Haruonjongil jiwobojiman ddo ddeoolla
Haruonjongil ibyeolhajiman ddo dasi ddeoolla
Soneul bbeodado sonnaemileodo aneulsu eopneun goseuro
Geudaen gatjiman chatji motago nan ulgoman itjyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo jaggu geudaeman boyeoyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo nan geudael saranghaneunde
Mianhaeyo mianhaeyo naemali deullisinayo
Dasi dolawajwoyo geudae animyeon nan andoeniggayo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo nan ojik geudaebbuninde
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo geudaega ddeonaganeyo
Eoddeokajyo eoddeokajyo naldugo ddeonaganeyo
Saranghaeyo saranghaeyo mongnoa bulleobojiman
Geudaen deutji motaeyo gaseumeuroman woechigo isseuni

just enjoy da video... "Promise"

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