Saturday, October 31, 2009

welcome surgery

even though its been 3 weeks in surgery posting,
i still felt at lost some times.
need to be quick to grab everything around me!!!

to an extend, i truly wasted my time at alamanda and guess what i got????
my pocket become "kempis" and going to "empty"



this ring had friend finally


this what i got...


Sunday, September 6, 2009

reminder for all of us, have you parents in this world is the best thing never can be replaced....

Dear son...
The day that you see me old and I am already not,
have patience and try to understand me …

If I get dirty when eating…
if I can not dress…
have patience.
Remember the hours I spent teaching it to you.

If, when I speak to you,
I repeat the same things thousand and one times…
do not interrupt me…
listen to me.
When you were small,
I had to read to you thousand and one times the same story until you gets to sleep…

When I do not want to have a shower,
neither shame me nor scold me…
Remember when I had to chase you with thousand excuses I invented,
in order that you wanted to bath…

When you see my ignorance on new technologies…
give me the necessary time and not look at me with your mocking smile…
I taught you how to do so many things…
to eat well,
to dress well…
to confront life…

When at some moment I lose the memory or the thread of our conversation…
let me have the necessary time to remember…
and if I cannot do it,
do not become nervous…
as the most important thing is not my conversation but surely to be with you and to have you listening to me…

If ever I do not want to eat,
do not force me.
I know well when I need to and when not.
When my tired legs do not allow me walk...…
give me your hand…
the same way I did when you gave your first steps.

And when someday I say to you that I do not want to live any more…
that I want to die…
do not get angry…
some day you will understand…

Try to understand that my age is not lived but survived.
Some day you will discover that,
despite my mistakes,
I always wanted the best thing for you and that I tried to prepare the way for you...

You must not feel sad, angry or impotent for seeing me near you.
You must be next to me,
try to understand me and to help me as I did it when you started living.

Help me to walk…
help me to end my way with love and patience.
I will pay you by a smile and by the immense love I have had always for you.

I love you son…
Your father

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Welcome back...

dah 4 minggu dgn public health.
hidop penuh cabaran, time critical tu lah banyak mende nak jadi.
1. time nk hntr report, printer buat hal
2. time nk pg cari restoran beli mkanan, time tu la lak sesat.
3. today, time critical, x pernh dibuat blik kol 5.50 a.m. from RC, smpai rumah smbung wat keje sambil tertido2. kol 7 a.m bhav call die trkunci so kne pi ambik die kt RC, dahle keje x siap lg, drive like a mad person, tp alhamdulillah, smpai awal juga kt RC in 7.55 a.m.

p/s - apa pendapat anda sambil gelak bawa kete like a mad person? mesti cam org mabuk kan? itulah conditionku....

Saturday, August 15, 2009

PUBLIC HEALTH

ok, 1st day kene dgr taklimat,
then ambik info 1 patient kt klinik kesihatan sg pelek
bile aku call mck tu...

aku: hello, boleh saya ckp dgn pn hong kim choo?
pn hkc: alooo...
aku: hello, boleh cakap dgn pn hong kim choo?
pn hkc: aloo... ya, saya...
aku: saya bla...bla...bla...
pn hkc: ha??? saya kurang dgr la, kamu ckp sama anak sya laa...
aku: ok
anak die: haloo...
aku: haloo, saya bla...bla...bla...
(ntah bahase mende die ckp, bising lak tu)
aku: helloooo......
anak die: aloo...
(bising lagi...)
aku: hallo
anak die:ah, hallo. apa mau?
aku: saya bla...bla... bal...(intro bukan main panjang lai)
boleh x saya mahu dtg jumpa emak encik?
anak die: nanti saya tanya sama emak saya ha..
ku: ok
(pastu anak die tanye la mak die dlm bahase cine yg aku x paham)
anak ie: haloo... soli aa, mak saya tak mau
aku: sya mau jumpa aje, nk lawat die
anak die: soli aaa, mak say tarak mau
aku: ok

dengan hati yg berat aku bgta dr sabariah, tp disuruh juga pegi ke sana...
entah apalah nasibku nanti...

tersesat lagi....

1. hari b4 start balik sesi pembelajaran, dengan beraninye aku pi PKNS bangi sensoranng, petang lak tu. insiden yg berlaku:
i. silap kuar ikut bangi perdana instead of petronas (aku confuse dgn jln tetibe)
ii. blik kol 8 dari PKNS kuar ikut jln sesuka hati coz tetiba je x ingat jln mane dtg tadi, siap sampai kat permata doh...
iii. kuar permata aku silap lg, ambik jln nk pi cyber (hahaha maknanye aku boleh balik cyber, tp x leh balik bangi)
iv. naseb baek jumpe jln smpai dkt soshor . thanks era menjadi penyelamatku. (memg jd penunjuk arah yg berjaya, conversation smbil drive, mantap g2)

2. nak pi cyber dr bangi, ingtkan nk ikut era, tp mck aku lak pinjam kete...
nk kne smpai evenQ b4 9, mck aku lak x blik2 lg dh kol 8.30. akhirnye aku tepon gak, n die patah balik coz x smpai lai putra, baru je dlm area bangi, apekah?????
i. dengan penuh debaran bawa la kete tu, tetiba la silap arah pi masuk tol. ok, x pe kot pi la tol
ii. sampai simpang jb, klia aku masuk lagi, tetiba... erk, silap jln...
toot....toot...
aku: era, i masuk tol, pastu silap ambik jln pi klia
era: hah???? nape masuk tol? patah la balik
aku: x de tempat patah balik, ade pi putra mahkota
era: carila exit, patah balik, dah nk kol 9 ni, habistu cmne?
aku: xde la, ade pi mahkota je
dah terlepas dah exit tu..
era: ambikla exit tu..
aku: dah lepasla, tp ade signboard pi nilai klia
era: i xtau la, x biase jln tu
aku: habisla.... ok la, i jln je dulu tgk ape jd.
era: ok, cepat sikit tau, dh nk start ni.
aku: ok, nnti tlong hantar poster ye
era; ok, ape2 bgtau i
aku: ok

dahla asyik tepon era je sepnjg jln...
akhirnye jumpa la exit pi putrajaya cyberjaya
sampai juga akhirnya aku di evenQ, tp dah kol 9.12 a.m

mende yg aku buat hritu tp x pernah buat sblm ni:
1. drive smpai 150 km/hr (mantap gile, kalau mak aku tau, sah terkejut die)
2. drive 120 km/hr tp pegang hp sebelah, stereng sebelah (memang cari nahas)
3. drive ikut naluri je

itulah kisah hidop aku yg agak advantures....

Entering the 3rd year....

my 1st posting is PUBLIC HEALTH,
memg tatau nk wat ape, muke pon blurr je memanjang.

my 1st day come to Kl driving my mother's car, actually separuh jln je,
from lipis to kl, but a loootttssss of event happened.

1. bila sampai je kl, ayahanda tersayang mahu singgah rumah kawan die kat selayang,
direction yang diberi oleh kwn die "ikut je signboard pegi rawang, sampai dkt shell bagitau la ye.."
then ikut ajela signboard tu dgn aggak gerun bwa kete, 1st time drive kt kl la katakan.
ok ikut signboard aku ckp sensorang, tetiba smpai roundabout simpang yg ade kl, selayang, kepong, adoi, mane satu nie?????
masuk ajela kepong kate aku, ayahku di sebelah sokong aja....
smpai junction bwh fly-over, kanan pi FRIM, terus pi kepong,
selepas bertubi2 pertanyaan, akhirnya silap juga masuk jln pi kepong...
jumpa taman sri kepong, masuk situ dulu tok tanye balik direction,
P.N: ok, jln je terus, pastu masuk selayang.
aku: xde tulis pun selayang???? (confuse)

ok, aku drive je lagi ikut kepong.
P.N: cari shell belah kiri, pastu tunggu kat situ
Ayhnda: cari shell belah kiri...
aku: x de stesen shell pon, petronas ade la, shell belah kanan.
P.N: eh, belah kiri la
aku (sambil drive): sah, x de stesen shell, kiri pi kepong, kanan pi mane ntah.
eh, nak pegi mane ni????? (panik jap)
Ayhnda: dah2... berenti je kat sini,
aku: msuk kt kedai ni ek?
Ayhnda: ha ah, masuk je...

Ayahnda tepon balik la kawan die tu (P.N)
P.N: tu tempan jin betandang.
(hahahaha.... aku masuk hutan bandar. dalm hatiku)
Ayhnda: kat sini ade maybank....
P.N: ok, tunggu situ, nnti pi ambik
(naseb baek die tau kt mane aku masuk, kire terrer gak arr)

then, akhirnya selamat aku sampai rumah die...
jumpa Che Da yg sakit (baru balik hosp selayang wat chemo)
jumpa Cik Ita yg comel. hahahaha.... dah selesai santap, solat, ayhnda ngan P.N lesap, tinggal aku kt rumah ngan Che Da and Cik Ita. ok, aku borak la dgn dieorg, jd la tmpt luah perasaan...
(haih, aku ni memg sesuai ke jd councellor????)

2. udah selesai urusan ayhnda ngan P.N kami pon bertolak ke bangi,
P.N: tau x jalan?
aku: tatau...
P.N: ikut je pi kl, pastu jumpa la tu....
ni sape drive?
Ayhnda: die (aku) la, mlm2 ni kurang nampak...
aku dlm hati "aku lai ker????"

then aku pon drive la, kononnye nk ikut sg besi, last2 x dak pulak pi sg besi,
ni nk pi mane lak nie???? memg hampeh gile,
ok, dipendekkan cerita ade la 2-3 x aku tersalah ambik simpang, so U-turn lah dgn jayanya...
naik flyover yg keberapa entah, kecut perut aku sebab die nyer jln cam bulatan, siap drift lg... tetiba...
Ayhnda: eh, ade kete kt belakang tu,
aku: hah??? x nmpak pon???? (dlm hati"habesla...")
Ayhnda: dah, jln je...
suddenly, kete yg kt belakang yg hampir dihimpit ke tepi dek aku pi tepi tunjuk penumbuk,
siot, ecut perut meh, siap wat gaya ala2 samseng lg tuh,
tgn aku dh berpeluh2 dah nie, tekak dh kering, naseb baik coordianation tgn betui lagi.

aku: nk berenti ke nie?
Ayhnda: x payah, jln je terus, bio je org camtu

ok, aku jln je terus, kete tu siap pi dok depan bwa slow2,
smpai simpang pi klia n kl, die pi kl, aku belok terus pi klia,
adus.... alhamdulillah.
akhirnya smpai juaga aku kt bangi mlm tu walaupon ingt2 lupe jln kt ctu...

malamnye ak siap mimpi lg tuh insiden tu, esoknye fobia bwa kete jap.
hahaha... skang dh ok
tp semenjak itu, 2-3 hri otakku x leh nk trime instruction n ingt mende dgn betul,
asyik sesat je...

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

copy from Backpack Ali da traveller...

Greetings from Singapore!
Just to share...
While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up stone and scratched lines on the side of the car.
In anger the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a wrench.
At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'

The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.
Devastated by his own actions...
Sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.

The next day that man committed suicide...
Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life...

Things are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's world is that,
People are used and things are loved...
During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used, but People are to be loved...
Be yourself...
This is the only day we HAVE

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny...

Life is Beautiful...

p/s yes, life is beautiful if we see it as beautiful, but it also ugly if we always see disaster..

Saturday, June 20, 2009

It getting my nerve

Since i don't know what to do, i had saw few korean movie and trailler.
Boleh kate have little interest on DBSK,
somehow when saw their MTV i really pissed off.
Ok, change channel, tengok boys over flowers sambungan dari hari khamis,
lagi pissed off!!!

Know why?
B'coz air muke sensorang x leh blah. Fake giler.
Argggghhhhh!!! My mood was ruined!!!!
I hate fake smile, fake tears and poker face.

I bet that poker face from Prof Ikram is better more than 100 times.
OMG, i really hate them now. Memang x de bakat berlakon.
But, their song still good though. X tau la cammane cite2 yg dieorg berlakon b4 ni cam best.
Haih, i am being lied..... Hurm, x leh lawan the veteran actor.

What i should do to vent my anger???
It really ruin everything.
Kalau x tau act, x yah la berlakon.
Baik eden tengok cit melayu yang lembap dari tgk muke fake korang.

Ok, done, dari kutuk orang baik kite puji orang lain.
Hehehe... Anyway, I think I like da old movie da most.
They have feeling, not a poker face.
If i am da director, baik ambik orang cam Queen B, er-er or Fiona jadi actress.
Harharhar....
Ok, no mood for movie now, baik layang manga.

Vivian u r still my no 1. thats why i like my nick "vca"
Bae yong jun, being ages but more handsome. hahaha, weird taste.

Friday, June 19, 2009

DETIK DETIK YANG MENCEMASKAN....

dalam menunggu "the day" come, i had rally struggle to discipline myself to study, but guess what, i still enjoying comics!!!

bila ingatkan kembali, i'm really hate it, but couldn't help it.
what a hopeless person... (depressed mode)
but, there are people who always pull me back to reality...

who are they????
da-lima-sekawan...

hehehe.... hasilnya....


berusaha memahamkan apekah ini sambil absorbed dlm tido...


wit nano before starting the discussion

turtle bag with a lot of things inside, cube bandingkan wich one macam turtle???

hasil penat lelah akhirnya berbaloi, tapi bak kate er-er, daku tidak dapat bergembira seperti orang lain.... masih terbuku dalam hati that i can do better than this....
however, do it better tomorrow!!!!

p/s buat kengkawan yang x de gambor ampun dipinta, patik x de gambarnya....

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Dedication to people around me for this 2 years...



Hopping that the sunshine last forever....
To all my fren who were with me for the whole time for these 2 years, i am really grateful to met you guys...
we are all together trough the storm, tornado, and even drought passing trough us,
tears and sweat hold us together...

Buat Nano, Er-Er, Ashu, Argh!!!-lia and Queen B, 1 year together with u guys brings a lot of sweet and bitter memories. Even kite x bersame for the 2nd yr, but all of u have leave mark on my heart. not being in a group doesn't meant we can't be together, right?

To tell da truth, sometimes it hurt to accept the truth. maybe unintentionally i had hurt you, but i hope being forgiven... and as for me, everything was okay, nothing bad will stain my heart (insyaAllah)

FOR ALL OF YOU, LETS MEET AGAIN NEXT YEAR!!!



Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Shocking and relief news...

today prof postkan the list of student eligible for pro exam,
i felt rilief my name is there, but sad too as not all of us were listed.

yeah, 9 days to go.
mom, dad n everyone, give me support!

wanna cry, but wanna laugh too...

Monday, May 11, 2009

kenape hatiku kosong??

camne leh terjebak ngan mendalah nie aku pon tatau,
tgn gatai nk click n type agaknyer...
n seronok bace blog org lein...

just wanna share, what i feel these days,
when i saw da folio, my heart feel empty....
wanna call my mom nun di sana, tapi x tercall la pulak,
tabahkan hati main game, tgk jam dah kol 12 pm..
alamak, task x wat lagi, x p, layan manga jap...

mata asyik menjeling ke arah timing di satu sudut di tepi com,
erk... dah petangkah?

ok, start ur move!!!
denagn penuh semangat membuat nota and...
next time i realize, i lay on da pillow, laptop standby mode, room is dark...
huh, pukul berapekah????
cepat2 tgk blik notes yg separuh siap n ...
tido balik coz jam menunjukkn mukanya yang bernombor 10...

all da Q keep asking on my head...
why nothing going into my head?
why i cannot concentrate?
why my adrenalin rush x de? (huh? apekehal?)
why tahap kerajinan x bertambah?
why is so many Q in my head?

da answer is one...
b'coz my heart far away from GOD.
masyaAllah, bila la nak taubat?
alwayz try my best to be a better person.
insya Allah, akan cuba bermujahadah...
tinggalkan sekejap irama yg melayan halwa pendengaran,
contengan yang menari di hadapan mata,
khayalan yang bermain dlm fikiran,

Ya ALLAH, bantulah hamba-Mu mencari ketenanagn dalam keributan...